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kinablu's stupid website where he posts things

hi im kinablu or kina or alex. im 16 years old and im a boy. i made this website because i need a place to write my thoughts and show what i make. also i always wanted to make a website. and if i ever get famous online people can look at this to see my thoughts.

some things i like are drawing and writing. i like to draw fanart and write fanfic but i also have my own stories. i want to make those into games, comics, books, etc. but i dont have much motivation since i get hyperfixated on pre-existing medias. some other things i enjoy doing are sewing, reading, listening to music, making crafts, daydreaming, coding(of course), and being weird. i don't think im much different from any other teen on the internet, but id still like to hope that people find me somewhat unique.

as stated before, i hyperfixate on pre-existing medias much more than any of my own works. i really only want to talk about the things i hyperfixate on. so i'm going to list them here. the ones in bold are my top interests, and the one at the top of the list is my number one hyperfixation at the moment.

  • randal's friends
  • blue lock
  • madoka magica
  • vocaloid
  • house md
  • ensemble stars
  • project sekai
  • alien stage
  • oyasumi punpun
  • needy streamer overload
  • milgram
  • genshin impact
  • visual kei
  • bungou stray dogs
  • omori
  • sanrio
  • stardew valley
  • minecraft
  • the phantom of the opera
  • mouthwashing
  • lain

    • i most certainly have more interests than that, but i do not have the best memory. it is also 3:17 am as i am writing this. i'll add more as i remember them and get into things.

    i'll talk more about myself on this page. you can use the tabs up top to navigate to different sections when they are avaliable.

    i would describe myself as passionate and ambitious. when i get into something, i get really into it. i have a lot of dreams and goals yet they are almost never achieved. i severely lack motivation. it also doesn't help that i'm diagnosed with a few mental disorders that make it harder for me to do things. but even if i cannot physically achieve what i dream in my head, i think it still counts if i thought about it and want it to happen. like making a video game, for example. i really want to do that. i'm just so tired. i dont think staying up so late helps either...

    i am an introvert. i like to stay in my room and do my own thing. i am very uncomfortable in crowds of people ad i don't like talking to new people. i need a lot of preparation time if i am going to socialize. it also makes me very angry when people do not follow the plans we have agreed on. for example, coming late without a good reason makes me upset. i hate change. especially in schedules. i don't get along well with impulsive people or people who cannot understand why i do the things i do.

    speaking of people, i find it very hard to make friends. but the ones i have really do fit with me. i like people i can joke around with freely but can also be serious with when the time comes. i like people who aren't afraid to be themselves(or at least to try) and who are weird and cringe. and of course i love people who share the same interests as me. i find it very hard to continue a friendship with anyone if we do not have a common interest.

    i've always wanted to make a video game. i think i'll record the progress here. there should be a game log page coming soon that you can view by going to the navi bar at the top. if i make a game, it'll be put on itch.io for free. i hope people like what i create.